Had my friend Jonathan pop around today, so i got him in front of the camera for a few pictures :) He is a fellow photog so pop over to his page and say hi,…. Jonathan Doherty Photography :)
I have had a very interesting personal journey with my photography, with lots of ups and downs along the way. And many will know it has been down for quite sometime now. I have loved meeting all the amazing people along the way, and have been able to be a part of some very special moments. To be a part of all that is what keeps my head held high. But my internal will power has been failing me. I got to hanging with alot of driven people and it made me realise even more that i am just NOT like any of them, and a wedge was put firmly in place in terms of how i see myself and how i see myself around my peers. My thought process and drive around the things i do are different, and hard to explain. My photography comes from a special place inside. My motives are simple and unclouded. I get treated like a professional a little to often, and the conflict sourrounding the financial aspect and how to portray myself is a heavy burdon, as i will never see myself the way that others seem to. I have never really felt the need to explain myself fully. Firstly i should’nt have too, but mostly because i know most just won’t understand.
But i must say this video does a really good job and saying what i have always felt, in regards to my photography. It’s not the money, it’s the journey towards what is good in life,…. MY LIFE. I see everyone loving this video and saying it is amazing and life changing……… it’s what i have been trying to explain for so long !!!!! Yet i have been made to feel like some kind of attention seeking fool.
A quote : “The worst thing to call somebody is crazy. It’s dismissive. “I don’t understand this person. So they’re crazy.” That’s bullshit. These people are not crazy. They are strong people,……………Maybe their environment is a little sick.”
I’m sooooo tired of being pushed down for doing what i enjoy, and doing it my way !!!!!! I don’t want to be like anyone else. I want to be me,….I want to be at peace, so i can carry on.